Dear, doubters, worriers, and disbelievers:
Last Friday, I quit my job. I’ve spent the past five years preparing to be an attorney, taking the LSATs and applying to law schools, working through a myriad of final exams, internships, and the bar exam, and, finally, plowing through the past eight months of being a family law attorney.
Yet, when I looked around, I didn’t aspire to this life. I wasn’t excited for the life of fifth-year associates. I wasn’t even excited at the salary. The paycheck I was already earning was just a paycheck–it wasn’t earned through my love and commitment to my fullest life. In other words, this was just a job, not my career.
At some time in my history, I made a commitment, or as Caroline Myss says, a “sacred contract,” to fulfill a purpose. Since, I was equipped with skills, education, and experiences to carry this out.
I had to stop ignoring signs–getting sick, inflamed skin, constant fatigue, bitchiness, sadness, crippling fear–that this job wasn’t right. I had to take that leap and trust that these signs are for a reason.
When I resolved to quit, I felt my sadness dissipate; I felt a wave of energy; my skin began to clear. Over the following few days, I received emails about careers instead of jobs, about the positive impact of This Dynamic Life, a loving friend gave me a massage without me asking, etc. Bottom line: all signs are showing that this leap wasn’t into the abyss. I am supported.
“The most important decision we ever make is whether we live in a friendly universe or a hostile universe.” –Albert Einstein
I believe that we live in a friendly universe that will support me and give me what I need when I need it. If I’m worried about failure, I will create a limitation. To say that there are no jobs in this failing economy, money doesn’t grow on trees, and starting a business will take years, decides that we live in a hostile universe. Opportunity is possible if you believe that we’re supported. Some Fortune 500 companies began in a recession!
Currently, my intuition is screaming for me to be of service to others. In fact, it is so loud, that I don’t have a choice. Now that I’m listening, I feel fuller, grounded, purposeful.
I am a strong, capable person. If I run out of money, I can get a job. Money isn’t irrelevant, but it is not the goal. I’m already successful regardless of the size of my bank account.
I recognize that you may think this language is jibberish; that you’re worried that I’ll blow through my savings; that I gave up a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity; or perhaps because I’m not in crazy debt and I don’t have a family to support that I’m able to make such silly choices. I respect your doubt, worries, and disbelief.
I just want you to ask whether this doubt, worry, and disbelief are stemming from love or fear?
By the English definition, I am unemployed, which could be very scary. Yet, I have a purpose, greater than any job I can find. I believe that the money will come as necessary. Your doubt, worry, and disbelief are only limiting you. I’m going to be just fine.